Mental Blocks...

COVID19 has seemed to bring 2020 to a halt; all the plans me and my friends had for summer have now been cancelled, our family holiday could be cancelled and life as we know it has been put on hold for a good while. And whilst, I know I’m complaining I do know these measures need to happen for the world to get rid of Coronavirus and for the world to be a safe place again, but that doesn’t mean we aren’t allowed to be sad about what life is like at the moment because it does have a massive toll on our mental health’s.

I know that it’s not just me feeling like this, so many people I’ve spoken to feel so mentally drained every day, some days are better than others and sometimes there are really good days.

One thing me and my friends have found, is that, having the passion and creativity that we had when we were at uni just isn’t there as strongly anymore. This is clearly due to the position we find ourselves in. Not being able to actually go to uni and have the environment that we all love, not being able to go to museums and art galleries, not being able to actually do any retail therapy and be in the environments that we are learning about and just having no sense of the normality that we are used to.

Personally, I have always struggled mentally with getting up and getting going in the morning if I have a bad day. Sometime just the thought of going out the front door and facing the world outside of it is a task but if I have things to look forward to and people to see and a reason to leave the house, I have to pull myself out of it. Going to uni would also be part of this struggle.

At the start of lockdown when we started online learning, I felt so motived to join my sessions every day and get involved with what was going on because I didn’t even have to look presentable. I could turn up to uni in my dressing gown with a towel around my head, fresh out the shower. I felt like at the start of lockdown it was a nice break from the daily hustle and bustle of life. But then once the weeks went on it became draining because my creativity and passion was slowly leaving my body like a battery lol.

At this point now, we have one brief left. The final summative brief until we finish for the year. First year done. I need to pull myself out of this mental block and put my all into this project in the best way I can in these circumstances. Not being able to go to the library for hours and just sit in silence doing my work and enjoying it whilst I do it, I really miss.

The circumstances aren’t going to change so I’m going to have to change myself. I think I can do this by having a daily routine and having some structure to each day. Going on a daily walk at the start of the day. Having a good breakfast. Keeping hydrated. Don’t spend too much time on social media. Have some me time.

I feel like this is the only way I’m going to get my brain feel somewhat normal and not like there’s a grey cloud over it. And every day I tell myself, we are one day closer to normality :)

Here is a nice song which keeps me moving forward during these times...